Season Greetigns!

With Compliments of the season to all!

I pray for you a Blesed New Year 2009
May the coming year not be too hard on all of us
May we remember our loved ones near and far
May we pray for those we have not been in touch with.
May those whom we have hurt forgive us
And
May we forgive those who have hurt us.
I Wish for you to be happy, your homes filled with love, kindness, peace and joy.
Happy New Year.

Hand made gifts for 4yrs old to do

This Christmas i decided to teach my daughter some crafts for her to make her own christmas presents. the book marks are for the guys and the hair clips are for the girls. She enjoyed doing all these even though most of the work was done by me! but it was fun and we had a great time!

Article URL: http://www.thenutgraph.com/mandatory-testing-flawed
Mandatory testing flawed19 Dec 08 : 4.49PMBy Shanon Shahshanonshah@thenutgraph.com

STARTING from 2009, Muslim couples intending to marry must undergo mandatory screening for the Human Immunodeficiency Virus (HIV). We don't know how this became official, but it now is, with the cabinet's approval.Deputy Prime Minister Datuk Seri Najib Razak said the measure was the government's response to the increase in HIV infections among women, who are more vulnerable than men. Najib also said that according to the United Nations Programme on HIV/AIDS (UNAIDS), although Malaysia has a concentrated HIV epidemic, we are recognised as having "high political will".Political rhetoric aside, the fact is mandatory HIV testing is flawed.

It is, for example, curious how the deputy prime minister appeals to UNAIDS's authority to legitimise the programme, but does not tell us what else UNAIDS recommends.
Most pointedly, UNAIDS does not support mandatory testing. Instead, it recommends for all testing to conform to the "Three Cs": involved informed consent, confidentiality, and pre- and post-test counselling.In fact, the Malaysian AIDS Council (MAC) and the Malaysian Positive Network (myPlus) both go one step further, saying that mandatory testing actually does more harm than good. These AIDS organisations also call on the government to adhere to international human rights standards.

An individual's right to privacy, individual security, and personal autonomy must not be compromised.Even the Malaysian Family Physicians, in its official journal, carries a commentary warning against confidentiality breaches. The commentary also questions the cost-effectiveness of mandatory testing. It concludes that mandatory testing does not guarantee a sustainable reduction in HIV transmissions.That is only logical.

After all, just because a person tests negative (for HIV) before marriage doesn't mean that he or she will not expose himself or herself to HIV down the line. Having unprotected sex with another partner can, and in some cases will, happen no matter what a person's test results say before marriage.

How useful then is it to enforce one-off testing in the first place?Stigma and discriminationFurthermore, the larger environment in Malaysia stigmatises and discriminates against communities most vulnerable to HIV — sex workers, drug users, gays, bisexuals, and transsexuals.According to MAC and myPlus, the only way around this is to ensure that the "Three Cs" are part of a larger comprehensive package that promotes HIV prevention, treatment, care, and support.

Imposing mandatory testing even before such stigma and discrimination is addressed will only discourage individuals from testing, for fear of subsequent persecution.
On the other hand, giving mandatory testing a veneer of moral righteousness will give those who do screen a false sense of security. If we do not arm the public with full and frank information about HIV, what's to stop an uninformed person from thinking, "I am safe and don't have to do this again?" It is precisely this "I am safe" mentality that causes rising infection rates in the first place.Cloaked in secrecyThere is a history to controversial suggestions by the authorities on dealing with HIV. On 8 Oct 2008, Islamic Development Department (Jakim) director-general Datuk Wan Mohamad Sheikh Abdul Aziz said all state religious authorities had agreed to enforce mandatory HIV testing. Apparently, they all agreed in a meeting in July 2008.

What public consultation and research the authorities embarked on to arrive at this decision was never revealed. And why such testing should be put under the purview of the religious authorities and not the Health Ministry was never discussed.The 8 Oct Jakim announcement was therefore slammed by various AIDS advocacy and service organisations in a 1 Dec joint statement on World AIDS Day. MAC president, Prof Dr Adeeba Kamarulzaman, called the announcement "alarming".

In 2005, then Health Minister Datuk Seri Dr Chua Soi Lek drew the ire of various Islamic groups, including PAS, for suggesting distribution of condoms, needle exchanges and methadone treatment for drug users, in order to address rising HIV infections. Chua was accused of legitimising immoral behaviour and violating Islamic laws.In 2001, Johor was the first state to introduce mandatory testing via its religious affairs department.

This was done without public consultation. There was also no disclosure of any comprehensive studies by the state authorities which caused them to arrive at this decision. Yet, since then, Kelantan, Negeri Sembilan, Sabah, Sarawak, and Selangor have followed Johor's lead.

Islamisation's role It is ironic that the only time the Malaysian government actually tried to implement something conforming to international best practices and human rights standards, it was shot down by a group of religious moralists.The irony continues. It is the Islamic groups that are now acclaiming the deputy premier the most for his announcement on mandatory testing, a measure that is clearly flawed by international standards. Muslim Consumer Association secretary-general Datuk Dr Ma'amor Osman is even suggesting extending mandatory testing to non-Muslim couples.

Katagender parodying the whip invoked on women senators to pass the Islamic Family Law Bill in 2006(pic courtesy of Ezrena Marwan) This demonstrates that the power struggle is not solely within the domain of the HIV discourse. It is also embedded in the larger matrix of Islamisation in Malaysia, and the accompanying warnings not to question policies and laws inspired by certain interpretations of Islam.The power struggle is not just limited to discourses within the country. In 2001, Malaysia led a bloc at the UN to deny a general assembly resolution that would protect the dignity and rights of lesbians, gays, bisexuals and transsexuals.

Nevertheless, it is disingenuous to blame Muslims or Islam for regressive approaches to HIV. The world's most progressive HIV harm reduction programme has been implemented in none other than the Islamic Republic of Iran, a regime seen by many as fundamentalist Islamist.

Because of regular consultations with conservative ayatollahs, Iranian activists have managed to give clean syringes and needles to heroin users, and distribute condoms to sex workers. Government clinics nationwide offer free counselling, testing and treatment. Tehran has even allowed condoms and needles to be available in its prisons — acknowledging tacitly that the more humane solution is to protect inmates from HIV rather than judging their sexual activities and drug-taking.

The way forwardMalaysia still sees alarming rates of violence against women, including marital rape and domestic violence. There is still widespread stigma against sexual minorities — the October 2008 fatwa banning tomboys is but a recent example. Condom use is nearly impossible to promote in the mass media.
Also, the class dimension of HIV infections has scarcely been addressed. The most economically vulnerable do not have the means to access counselling, testing and treatment.
Meanwhile, Malaysians who question decisions by the Islamic authorities are also routinely warned, threatened, and harassed.

The government even uses "insulting Islam" as an excuse to detain citizens without trial under the Internal Security Act.Having said this, it is so easy for opponents of mandatory testing to lose the moral high ground. After all, an ordinary citizen would ask, isn't mandatory testing only logical and good for the couples involved?

The answer, unfortunately, is a resounding no. In Malaysia's environment, rife with stigma, discrimination, and impunity, it is a mistake of catastrophic proportions to impose mandatory testing for HIV. The better solution would be to educate the public — fully, frankly, and without discrimination — on the facts of HIV transmission and the many ways to prevent and treat it.

Best regards,The Nut Graph teamMaking sense of politics and pop culture

Marina Mahathir Posted: 19 Dec 08 : 7.13PM

There are also I think constitutional questions involved here. Health policy for the whole country is under the purview of the Ministry of Health (MoH). But here you have another agency making health policy which has budgetary implications on another agency altogether (only doctors or nurses are allowed to draw blood from anyone, for instance).

The reason this is only for Muslims is very simple. Religious issues come under state control. Therefore HIV is being treated here as a religious issue, not a public health issue. This is why no public health arguments work with the state religious departments (I should know, I led a delegation to meet with the Johor religious department in 2001).

Bringing in religion into AIDS then puts a complete different colour to discussion on it. One which will ultimately lead nowhere and will probably cause more infections and more deaths.

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I personally feel this is just a waste of money. More importantly is educating the public on HIV! Prevention and how you can get infected.
BY making this mandatory for couple before marriage, is just totally pointless! Either one of the couple can easily contract HIVAnd just how will the other partner know and protect his/herself? Just my two cents worth! Val.

Dear all,

For those who would like to lend your surport or comments, please see below.

I for one am all for dialog better to try ad die then never lift a finger!

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'She would be alive if they had helped'

In a frantic attempt to save his wife, a 31-year-old executive was forced to dig through the earth with his bare hands until his fingers bled.He felt a sense of relief when rescue personnel arrived at the scene.

But to his horror, they refused to help him, apart from throwing him a spade.The startling accusation was made by the family of Ng Yee Ping, a 30-year-old accountant who perished in the Bukit Antarabangsa landslide tragedy on Saturday.Yee Ping (left), who delivered a son two months ago, is believed to have died of internal injuries due to broken ribs.However, Selangor police chief Khalid Abu Bakar came to the defence of the rescue personnel, citing their lack of training as a reason. Speaking to reporters at the funeral service for Yee Ping yesterday (Monday), her family vented their frustrations claiming that she could still be alive if rescue personnel had acted promptly.

Recounting the ordeal, yee Ping's mother-in-law Wong Sai Mooi said she and her husband had escaped through the second-floor window. She then called out for her two sons. "I heard my sons reply, I also heard my grandson crying. I felt relieved but did not know that my daughter-in-law was buried alive."Then I heard my eldest son (Yee Ping's husband) calling his wife, telling her to remain conscious," she was quoted as saying by China Press.

At this point, Wong (left) said she knew that her daughter-in-law was trapped, but fearing that there could be another landslide, she told her sons to leave the damaged bungalow.However, yee Ping's husband refused to leave his wife behind, and after handing his newborn son to his brother, he started to dig with his bare hands. His brother later returned to help him.'They treated her like a dead dog'After some time, just as they managed to reach the victim's hand, several rescue personnel passed the area.

The brothers asked them for help but were told to wait until more personnel arrived."Later, a few rescue personnel arrived at the scene but they just threw a spade at (my sons) and did nothing," she alleged, claiming that Yee Ping could still be alive if they had assisted."But they didn't (help). (They treated her) like some dead dog or cat. Would they have done the same if one of their family-members was involved?" she asked bitterly.Wong's husband, Ng Yong Shun, 56, also accused the rescue personnel of looting his house and consuming his expensive wine.He claimed that when he returned to the house on Sunday morning, he was shocked to discover several men in uniform lying on his bed, smoking and drinking his wine."One of them had even asked me whether I still wanted these things, if not I should give it to them.

Later, my wife and I examined our safety box and found it opened. Several branded watches and jewellery were missing," he said. According to Oriental Daily News, Ng said he lost 80 bottles of expensive wine worth RM160,000 and six watches worth RM180,000.Police chief: 'I don't believe'Commenting on the accusations yesterday, Khalid said he found it hard to believe that rescue personnel would have acted in such a cold-hearted manner."I don't believe that they would sit there and drink alcohol and so on.

If there is such a person, could he be seen as a human being?" asked the police chief.Khalid said the police would meet with the family to gather more information and conduct a thorough probe into the matter. On the same note, he explained that some rescue personnel who are untrained are not allowed to conduct certain rescue operations."You don't expect an ambulance driver to save a buried victim. He is not trained, so if we request untrained personnel for help and they refuse, we shouldn't blame them."This is because their lives are in danger too. I think we should respect their decision. To dig and save someone, one has to be trained. For an untrained person, it's a very dangerous task," he said.Is it a carnival?Khalid also expressed disappointment with the media for publishing such accounts without verifying the matter with him."I hope that before you all write your news, you will consult me first, and make sure such things really happened. Is there anything wrong with that?

"Please, we are working hard here, and you are making it into a situation where people would have a negative impression of us," he told reporters.Khalid also saw red when quizzed on the 'carnival-like atmosphere' with the abundance of food and other facilities for rescue personnel."What do you think? Does it really look like a carnival? If that is the case, you write (what you want), there's no need to ask for my opinion," he thundered."Is it a carnival or is the rescue team working hard?

If you think it's the former, you just write, it seems you have enough intelligence to comment on it," he added. (Malaysiakini)

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Oh What heartless people we have in our rescue team. In my opinion The rescue people should not be there if they were not trained!
If you are not allowed to help why are you allowed to be there?

How come The police/ fire fighters during the 9/11 attack on the twin towers how come these personel stayed adn tried to help so many people even though they were just police they were not the rescue personel many of them died. thye are the brave. So are our rescuers all cowards?

I sincerely do not think all our rescues are like these people highlighted in the papers. I am very sure they are just a handful of cowardly people but other incidents have shown we have many who are like these people like the chinese lady in the johor floods last year who was left to die because they didnt want to rescue her because she didn't pay them. Read here: http://mt.m2day.org/2008/content/view/15867/84/

and the bus accident in Terengganu.

Someone tell me we have better people then these!

Developers and buyers responsible too, says Shabery (F*#% You!)
KUALA LUMPUR: The Government should not be held solely responsible for the Bukit Antarabangsa landslide disaster on Saturday.

Information Minister Datuk Ahmad Shabery Cheek said it was not fair to slam the Government for failing to act every time a disaster happens.

“It is unfair to say the Government did not act. We cannot put the blame on just one authority. (Why the F*@% not?) two to tango, but this time there are three – the Government, developers and buyers,” he said yesterday.

Ahmad Shabery was commenting on the current blame game among the authorities, developers and the public after the devastating landslide at the up-market residential area which claimed four lives and destroyed 14 bungalows. (well looks like you are great at coming up with stupid lame excuses and finding scapegoats!)

Victims of the landslide have said they would sue the relevant government authorities for compensation. Ahmad Shabery, who is also the deputy chairman of the National Disaster and Relief Management Committee, said house buyers also needed to be critical, especially on safety aspects, when buying property on hillslopes.

He said prospective buyers should exercise their right to demand from developers that the properties be safe to live in and would be insured for natural disasters. (Here i THought the gvernment issues the CF (certificate of Fitness) After they have verified that the houses are fit to be occupied?!)

“Safety should override status and beauty. Buyers should make that clear to developers,” he said, adding that enforcement at local authority levels should be strengthened to prevent such disasters from recurring. (Isn't it the Government who approves land projects to be developed before the Developers are allowed to start any developement or am i wrong?!)

Its president Datuk N. Marimuthu said that this was because too many incompetent people were given “blank cheques” to wreak havoc on the environment, causing landslides and other natural disasters. — Bernama

And you are the Menister of Information?!! Shameful!

God Loves you, Live Your Dreams!
Your God-Given Dream Is Meant to Come True.

Inside of each person there is a God-given dream that is meant to come true! God is a dreamer and He has created us in His image and with the ability to dream.
In order to live an abundant and prosperous life we are to use our ability to dream as a focal point, as we take action by implementing the ideas God gives us.

I believe God gives everyone ideas, but why are some people not pursuing their dreams? My theory is they may have had their hopes and dreams crushed too many times causing them to be fearful of dreaming any more. They have just adopted this attitude that "This is as good as it's ever gonna get, so let's just accept it."

Are you like that? Maybe you are afraid to get your hopes up in case "it doesn't work out." If it doesn't work out you will still be disappointed. You might as well get your hopes up and believe! Jesus said, "All things are possible to him who believes" (Mark 9:23). But, "all things being possible" is a conditional statement because it is dependant on your belief, or disbelief.

So how do you start dreaming again? Since a dream is nothing more than a thought, or a series of thoughts, you begin there; by controlling your thoughts (you must control your thoughts or they will control you). Stop thinking negatively and begin to believe for great things. Search deep down for what it is that gets you excited. Find it, believe in it, and confess it.

It is vital that once you establish what it is that you want, that you back it up with words. Jesus said in Mark 11:23, "He who believes that those things which he says shall come to pass, shall have whatsoever he says."

It's a shame that so many people don't "get" that Scripture. They will get out of bed tomorrow and do the same thing they did yesterday. Doing the same work, seeing the same people, and complaining about the same things. And then the next day, the cycle will repeat itself. Day after day, week after week, year after year, and all of a sudden, life on earth will be over, and they will not have experienced what God had intended for them all along.

That's why Proverbs 29:18 says, "Without a vision the people perish." There is a God-given dream inside you, but it may have just gotten buried under all the cares of your life. You must dig it out because you must absolutely have a vision, or a dream, for your life! Your dream is what will cause you to jump out of bed in the morning instead of waking up with anxiety and dread for the day ahead.

When you first wake up every morning, immediately begin to focus on your dream. If you don't, you'll find it very easy to become discouraged and start complaining about things. This is definitely no way to start your day! Your God-given dream is meant to come true!

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I have forgotten to dream,
I have forgotten how great God's love for me is.
I have forgotten to turn to him in all my problems.
I have forgotten He said "Ask, and you shall receive, Seek and you shall find, Knock and the door will be opened unto you."
So I'm reminding myself to "Ask, Seek & Find" and i will dream!
To you my friends, I hope you rekindle your dreams.
May God Bless you all of you and your loved ones it doesn't matter who you are you are children of God!

The one who blesses others is abundantly blessed; those who help others are helped.


Proverbs 11:25


In this time of giving let's open our hearts to those with less then ourselves.


To me the proverb above are not just about helping the needy in terms of the poor, sick, aged, orphaned, abandoned, etc.
I read and i get the message of speaking up when injustice is being served to those around me.

Every time you do What is right you will be prosecuted.

This is true, You will be the "black sheep, the trouble maker, the 'Auntie', the One who doesn't shut up!'

But it is up to you to speak up for what is right or keep quiet and let injustice continue?



To me if i see something i feel is wrong, and i keep quiet it means i am condoning it. then I'll be a hypocrite! Something i despise.



Speaking up is not easy though, I know, you will have to face many many tough situations but knowing that you tried to speak up for the truth and Justice, even if you fail, you did something. that in it self is a victory.



If i have to go down, let me go down fighting!

Some one asked me "why do you voice up it's dangerous! Think! you have a family, what will happen if they kick you out?"

Yes i have a family, Yes! i am afraid, but it is for them that i voice up, How do i teach my kid to be a good person if i show her, by my example, that I'm a coward or worse a hypocrite? What will she learn then?

So ......... I pledge to continue to 'stick to my guns and do what is right.

I salute those you have voiced up for us in the past and continuing to do so.

What i do in my everyday life is small, it is not meaningless, Everything starts with just one person and one small step, and one day at a time.

I will voice up for in justice around me, at home, at work, at play, in my country, in this life.

The end.

MTUC you should ask the local people 1st if they want the foreign workers jobs!

Monday November 24, 2008
MTUC wants Govt to stop bringing in foreign workers
Compiled by TAN SIN CHOW, NURBAITI HAMDAN and A. RAMAN


THE Government should cancel the permits issued for foreign workers who have yet to enter into the country, Malaysia Nanban reported.

Quoting Malaysian Trade Union Congress (MTUC) secretary general G. Rajasekaran, the report said the job opportunities could be opened to Malaysians in view of the current world economic crisis.

He said there would be at least 30,000 job vacancies available each month if the inflow of foreign workers was stopped.

He said with 227 employment agencies nationwide, more foreign workers were being brought in and this created more social problems. He added that due to the economic crisis, it is expected that the unemployment rate will rise from 3.6% to 4%, or 5%.


6,059 complaints against civil service this year
> Tamil Nesan reported that the Chief Secretary to the Government Tan Sri Mohd Sidek Hassan was not worried about the complaints made against the civil service.

He said that these complaints provided an opportunity for the civil service to correct all flaws. The public has the right and freedom to voice their frustrations, opinions and suggestions about the civil services, he added.

He said there were 3,379 complaints in 2006, 5,437 last year and 6,059 till September this year.

Other News & Views is compiled from the vernacular newspapers (Bahasa Malaysia, Chinese and Tamil dailies). As such, stories are grouped according to the respective language/medium. Where a paragraph begins with a sub-heading, it denotes a separate news item.
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Just my two cents worth here! But i seriously think the MTUC should find out 1st what jobs these local people are willing to do before they make suggestions.



Where i know now finding 1 operator is like finding a needle in a haystack! And keeping them ..... that a whole different story.



No locals wish to do the job. Oh they will say anything in order to get the job but 50% of the time they do not turn up for even the 1st day of work!



Another 30% will likely disappear after the 2nd day of work. the 20% will leave after not even 20 days of work! I've been trying to fill in one operator's position for the past 2years and 2 months! We have given up!



Now I've personally interview all the candidates and taken a variety thinking one will stick.

I've taken Malays (lasted 1 month), Sabahans (lasted 2 months), Indians (lasted 6 months), in they 20's, 30's, early 40's, married ones, single ones, parents, childless ones, educated ones, uneducated ones, male, female, etc.....



It's useless, they say the pay is too small, but their salary expectation as written on the form is less!, or they are not qualified for higher salary.



One guy told me he needed a salary of Rm1000.00, yes i can understand that but he is only until std6 primary school. He cant speak English, he cant read a drawing, he can't use any measuring tools he's not willing to learn from the bottom but he wants to earn the higher position's salary even the assistant supervisor working here for 5 years has not reached that basic salary yet. I told him he would need to get a different job then because we cannot afford to employ someone like him on that amount.



What do we do?? Get foreign workers. They are reliable, trustworthy, they do their job, no hanky panky, they don't complaint, they don't take many MC's. even though they get harassed by locals (in their neighbourhood) they still walk or cycle to work daily, wet or dry weather. Never late.



Now tell me as a factory on budget due to the economy, how much do you feel the factory can afford to pay an inexperience local worker who may leave at anytime just because they don't like working in a dirty & hot environment?



So i feel MTUC you should better survey the locals 1st because I'm a local too and i do not think i will want to take a job with a salary of RM500 basic and allowance of RM 130 a month doing a foreign workers job it's not even enough to put decent food on the table!

The Shit we some of us are in!

Friday November 14, 2008
Two single mums turn to prostitution to feed kids

TWO single mothers became part-time prostitutes to make ends meet after their ex-husbands failed to pay maintenance despite the Syariah Court order.
Worse still, the two women – a security guard and a cleaner – had to allow their colleagues to pay in instalments for “services rendered” to earn extra money.

These were some concerns raised by the Syariah Judicial Department at a seminar, reported Berita Harian.

Department director-general Datuk Ibrahim Lembut said that one of the women, a mother of six, turned to prostitution two months after her divorce.“She offered services to her colleagues and was willing to accept staggered payment because their salaries were low.

“The other mother, who works as a cleaner, also had to resort to this so that they could feed their children,” he said.
Ibrahim said the department’s Family Support Division had brought a case against the women’s former husbands.

The division is expected to take action against the two for failure to pay maintenance.
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I Highlight this story because there are many of us not only those who has gone through the syariah courts but the civil courts as well who are int he same boat!

Our country's laws do nothing to make it compulsary for the father to pay maintenance. Even the rates are so very low!

I remember my mom told her friend that in 1977 i was 6 yrs old then the judge set the monthly maintenance of RM200 for 3 kids per month! I was only 6 yrs old then, my sister was 5 and my brother was 3. I remember so vividly that my mom had this savage look of anger and frustration on her face because to top it of my dad's lawyer said he cannot afford that amount every month and asked to reduce it!

We had no house of our own. My mom worked 2 full time jobs and 1 part time job to make eds meet and in hopes of giving us a better life. My dear beloved mother worked until 2 weeks before she died!

And now i'm a single mother. My story will have to be told later. Right now i'm just too angry to write anymore, my memories are too vivid.

At exactly 11.20 am (coz I remember so vividly that, right after, I turned straight to the clock to see what time it was!) on Monday, the 10th of November 2008, My little girl was born. And she was surprisingly little at 2.66kgs only! Even though it felt like a creature from the movie “Aliens” was trying it’s damness to make it’s way outta my body at the time! Well being not allowed any of these modern days mode of pain reliever would make anyone believe the same I’m sure!

Anyway my point is at it’s been a 4 years since the day my daughter was born. And she has changes so very much since. It’s been a tough 4 years for me as well but that’s a different story.

She was named Katrina Thereza Altree. My little angel.

These 4 years as just flew by so very fast. I still feel she is a little baby and in truth yes she is. But oh how much she has grown. From 2.66 kg to 19kgs is a whole lot of difference and I just feel like crying where has my little baby gone too?

It seems just like an hour ago I was carrying her in my arms or changing her diaper and now she is busy answering me back! Running & jumping all over the place. Fighting with me just so she can skip her dinner to play with friends.

Oh how I dread having her turn into a teenager. I want my little baby back. I just want to hold her and rock her to sleep and sing her a lullaby just a few more times before she starts telling me “don’t embarrass me mama!”

Well that is what I wish and of coz it’s like wishing that time stood still. Pointless.

My darling Katrina, how I love her with all my heart and mind and soul. If only I can put my feelings in a bottle and let her see it when she’s grown up soon one day.

In many ways she is my life saver, my reason for going on. For waking up to another day. She motivates me, she keeps me going when I feel so down and as though the problems of all this world is on me. I just need to see her smile and I feel all is right with my world.

Her sunny smile is infectious. Her laughter, like music. Her non stop chatter, is prove that I’m not a lone. Her trusting love, is prove of God in my life. Her hugs, revives me her tiny kisses pours love into my heart renewing my spirit.

And so I pray Dear God bless and keep her safe, happy and healthy always. Watch over her and guide her.

And God, Thank you a million Thank you s will not cover my gratitude for the gift of My Precious Princess, My daughter, Katrina Thereza Altree.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY SWEETHEART!

Thoughts Of A Mom: Can I just slap you for making me feel so disgusted and insulted!?

Thoughts Of A Mom: Can I just slap you for making me feel so disgusted and insulted!?

Can I just slap you for making me feel so disgusted and insulted!?

I feel disgusted over what the Malacca government is trying to do! Truly I try to understand how they may think this was a good solution it’s because he is a man and has never ever been in the single mother’s shoes! I know that they think this is a good deed and this is helping the Single moms. But it just totally makes my skin crawl!

Here I quote from The Star Saturday November 1, 2008

Malacca may give RM1,000 to men who take them as second wives.

MARRIED men in Malacca may receive RM1,000 from the state government if they choose to take poor, single mothers as second wives, reported Harian Metro.

The daily quoted Malacca Chief Minister Datuk Seri Mohd Ali Rustam, (what a very narrow mind you have sir) who made the proposal, as stressing that the incentive would be given on condition, among others, that the men do not divorce their first wives. “May be the single mom who re-marries can be the servant as well as new concubine! Hey this will stop the men form going outside the home to have an affair! Oh yes and the kids will be little helpers around the house! On top of that there’s the RM1000 bonus the bugger gets paid! Way to go Datuk! Keep on thinking with your dick!”

He said the move was not to encourage polygamy but to ease the burden of single mothers who are dependent on welfare aid from various parties. “And just how will it ease the single mother’s burden when the money goes to the man?!”

“The matter is still being considered. ”Well my advise is better start un-considering it!” The state government will decide following discussions with various parties, including the Malacca Islamic Religious Department, Women and Family Development Council and Welfare Department,” he said.

Are we cows!? That you can just give away like an incentive?! Are we so worthless to this country that you need to give men money to marry us off?! Do you really think that getting re-married is the best solution?!

Have you ever considered that we are sick of men trying to undermine our independence? SO we are struggling, at least some of us do not have to put up with abusive men in our lives anymore!

Have you considered that getting re-married is a thought that will never cross the widow who longs for her dearest love who has left this world and never can she consider being re-married ever again?

Have you ever considered that those who have been deeply hurt and abandoned by their ex husbands will be likely to jump up and re-marry again!

Yes I do agree some of us are lucky enough to start a new life with someone new, but that new man should want to marry without the thought of RM1000 “reward” on his mind!

I’m not even going to touch on the 1^st wife that was mentioned! Go do some homework man!

What makes me so pissed off is: Why he would suggest giving the money to the men!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hwy cant he just suggest giving the money to the single mothers them selves irrelevant if they re-marry or choose to live their single lives!

STOP INSULTING US AND TREATING US LIKE LEFTOVERS AT A PARTY!

Disorder in the American Courts

I received this in an email today and found it so funny! I have no idea if it is really in a book somewhere and if it was really heard in court but,..... some things really needs to be shared like humour.
Happy reading!

These are from a book called Disorder in the American Courts, and
are things people actually said in court, word for word, taken
down and now published by court reporters who had the torment of
staying calm while these exchanges were actually taking place.

ATTORNEY: Are you sexually active?
WITNESS: No, I just lie there.
____________ _________ _________ ________

ATTORNEY: What gear were you in at the moment of the impact?
WITNESS: Gucci sweats and Reeboks.
____________ _________ _________ ________

ATTORNEY: This myasthenia gravis, does it affect your memory at all?
WITNESS: Yes.
ATTORNEY: And in what ways does it affect your memory?
WITNESS: I forget.
ATTORNEY: You forget? Can you give us an example of something you forgot?
____________ _________ _________ _______

ATTORNEY: What was the first thing your husband said to you that morning?
WITNESS: He said, 'Where am I, Cathy?
ATTORNEY: And why did that upset you?
WITNESS: My name is Susan!
____________ _________ _________ _______
ATTORNEY: Do you know if your daughter has ever been involved in voodoo?
WITNESS: We both do.
ATTORNEY: Voodoo?
WITNESS: We do.
ATTORNEY: You do?
WITNESS: Yes, voodoo
____________ _________ _________ ________
ATTORNEY: Now doctor isn't it true that when a person dies in his sleep, he doesn't know about it until the next morning?
WITNESS: Did you actually pass the bar exam?
____________ _________ _________ ______
ATTORNEY: The youngest son, the twenty-year- old, how old is he?
WITNESS: Uh, he's twenty-one.
____________ _________ _________ _________ _
ATTORNEY: Were you present when your picture was taken?
WITNESS: Are you kidding' me?
____________ _________ _________ ________
ATTORNEY: So the date of conception (of the baby) was August 8th?
WITNESS: Yes.
ATTORNEY: And what were you doing at that time?
WITNESS: Uh... I was getting' laid!
____________ _________ _________ ________
ATTORNEY: She had three children, right?
WITNESS: Yes.
ATTORNEY: How many were boys?
WITNESS: None.
ATTORNEY: Were there any girls?
WITNESS: Are you shittin' me? Your Honour, I think I need a different attorney. Can I get a new attorney?
____________ _________ _________ ________
ATTORNEY: How was your first marriage terminated?
WITNESS: By death.
ATTORNEY: And by whose death was it terminated?
WITNESS: Now whose death do you suppose terminated it?
____________ _________ _________ ________
ATTORNEY: Can you describe the individual?
WITNESS: He was about medium height and had a beard.
ATTORNEY: Was this a male or a female?
WITNESS: Guess.
____________ _________ _________ _______
ATTORNEY: Is your appearance here this morning pursuant to a deposition notice, which I sent to your attorney?
WITNESS: No, this is how I dress when I go to work.
____________ ________ ______ ____________
ATTORNEY: Doctor, how many of your autopsies have you performed on dead people?
WITNESS: All my autopsies are performed on dead people. Would you like to rephrase that?
____________ _________ _________ ________
ATTORNEY: ALL your responses MUST be oral, OK? What school did you go to?
WITNESS: Oral.
____________ _________ _________ ________
ATTORNEY: Do you recall the time that you examined the body?
WITNESS: The autopsy started around 8:30 pm .
ATTORNEY: And Mr. Denton was dead at the time?
WITNESS: No, he was sitting on the table wondering why I was doing an autopsy on him!
____________ _________ _________ _________ _____
ATTORNEY: Are you qualified to give a urine sample?
WITNESS: Huh....are you qualified to ask that question?
____________ _________ _________ ________
And the best for last:
____________ _________ _________ _______
ATTORNEY: Doctor, before you performed the autopsy, did you check for a pulse?
WITNESS: No.
ATTORNEY: Did you check for blood pressure?
WITNESS: No.
ATTORNEY: Did you check for breathing?
WITNESS: No.
ATTORNEY: So, then it is possible that the patient was alive when you began the autopsy?
WITNESS: No.
ATTORNEY: How can you be so sure, Doctor?
WITNESS: Because his brain was sitting on my desk in a jar.
ATTORNEY: I see, but could the patient have still been alive, nevertheless?
WITNESS: Yes, it is possible that he could have been alive and practicing law.

WISHING ALL MY FRIENDS A VERY HAPPY DEEPAVALI!

Living thru our kids.

My friend was just telling me today that her mom will be going on a holiday again, she just got back from a trip to Phuket.

Thinking about her mom having it much easier now after years for struggling on her own (a widow of 18years with 7 kids to raise alone!).

I suppose it was way tougher then compared to life nowadays. Being a Single Parent i tend to sympathise with all single parents no matter if they had a tough life or an easy one i feel it may just seem easy to the untrained eye.

Like for me, I get by day to day, after some time things just becomes a routine and somehow you kind of get used to it. But still you are lonely, tired, many times discouraged and desparate fo get to thru to the next month.

Anyway back to what i was thinking about initially, I just hope that when my daughter is an adult she too will tell me "Mama, why don't you go for a holiday? all expenses paid for of cause!" Wow wouldn't that be nice!

But then again it's never wise to hope and think that one day your kids will do this or that for you.

I was raised by a single mother too. No matter how much I as her daughter wanted to make her life easier, by buying a house for her, working and having enough money so she wil never have to work a day in her life again, sending her on a holiday to Australia,etc,... it never happened.
So What my mom may have hope for from us her kids, i'm very sure it never materialised.

I too must not hope on my daughter because to do so would just bring disappointment later on.

As parents we tend to put alot of our dreams on to our children. Dreams of our kids loving us so much, dreams of them doing so well, dreams of them so sucessful in life that it's just automatically assumed that in our our old age, they will look after us.

We are parents, it is not our right to ask to be taken care of when we are old it is our duty to take care of our children. It is a rare priviledge that our kids would want to and are able to care for us when the time comes.

I'm sure many of you would disagree with what i've said but this is my opinion.

Only very fortunate and blessed parents who have kids that will watch over them and care for them in thier old age.

They are very very blessed when their kids are able and willing to do so. We cannot fault them if they are willing but are unable to afford to look after us.

So we as old parents of the future, what are we to do when the time comes?

And that is my reflection for today.

Why are you so scared, Mr Government Sir?

Today I was reading about some HINDRAF people who were arrested when they were trying to hand in a certain memorandum to the Prime Minsister at his office.

"Twelve people, including a six-year-old child, representing the banned Hindu Rights Action Force (Hindraf) on Thursday" (The Star). Why were they arrested? Their reason would be because they were declared illegal.

Utter nonsense!!!.

If I was arrested under ISA, i am very sure my 4 year old daughter , sister, brother, aunty, uncle, father, grand father, cousin, friend, lover, etc will do what ever they can to try to get them to release me. Just because they love me!

At 1st they will try the police, when that fails, they will try the Prime Minster as he is the only one with the power to make a decision.

Now how to get to the Prime Minster? May be go to his office and present him with a card? When that fails may be go the open house for Raya to present him with another card and hopefully during the shawal month of celebration he will consider his mistakes and find mercy in his heart and release me?

When that fails and my people are branded as irresponsible, nuisance, and trouble makers they were criticized for appearing in "bad taste" at that "Holy Event" (Raya Open House) they were admonished that they should have found a more appropreate place and time for these kind of things.

They will then listen to those critics with hope in their hearts thinking "OK they sadi find a suitable place and time" They think we are terrorist, lets bring less men to hand over our plea! We will look treating if all the men follow, better her daughter go how treatening can a child and women be?" So they went to the Prime Minster's Office on a working day to try to hand their plea and what happens????

They were all arrested! The situation is the same, Mr Government they are only trying their level best to get their loved one out! but you! You! Mr Government, you are so scared of them that you had to arrest them!

Is this fair i ask you Mr Government? You were elected by us the people to serve us the people not your selves! PLEASE REMEMBER WHO YOUR BOSS ACTUALLY IS!!!

We had a hand in putting you up there it is for you to work for us to listen to us!

I do not feel safe anymore . I do not feel this is Malaysia! Where and what has happen to Malaysia!?

I'm deeply ashamed of what has been happening in this country.

Remember dear MR Gorvernment remember you need to answer to us and most importantly, GOD is watching you!

May God watch over the innocents and defend them!

I am Malaysian. Don't Ask me my race!

Ever since i can remember I've always had people asking me or my siblings, what race we are.

Now why is race so important? Just because our skin color is not actually Chinese looking or Indian looking or Malay looking so they wonder what we are.
Rojak is what I'd like to tell them!

I'm a real Malaysian, my dad is a descendant of Indian parents. My late beloved mom was descendant of Chinese parents.

My dad was raised by his parents in Singapore during the British rule. Being of the catholic Faith they don't follow any Indian rituals or customs.

My mom was raised in a convent of orphanage kids by nuns from all over the world. She has no clue of Chinese customs.

Me, i had to deal with people lumping me into categories, or at least doing their best to lump me into their categories.

Why is it, the government categorize me by looking to my father's race? Where does it say that the male parent the dominant factor in determining my race? My dad sorry to say but he has never had a say in my up bringing.

I was raised by my mom and with the irreplaceable help of my 'Grandma' (she was the lady who came to look after us when we were toddlers when my parents were working and my family owes everything to her! She is of Portuguese descent)

Yes i am Part Indian and i'm proud of it, and yes i'm part Chinese and I'm proud of it too. And being raised by my Grandma I'm Part Portuguese and I'm Proud of it too. (Eh, BTW, Excuse me, but i speak fluent Melaka Portuguese, OK!) But most importantly i'm just me i'm an individual person, I'm Malaysian.

My daughter, she is part of me and part of her father. Her father is part Welch and part English.
Now even htough she was born in malaysia, in her birth cert it states She is British under race /Bangsa.

She is not British! She is Malaysian! Her birth cert has given her a My Kid card to state she is malaysian. she hold a malaysian international passport yet ,..... she had to be lumped into a category by the government! Yet even though she has never met her father, they had to categorize her according to her father! WHY!?! It makes me mad!

And every one that sees her, wants to know what race she is!

Therefore again i ask my question, Why ?

HEAL THE WORLD: Don't let Nurin Jazlin die in vain
In memory of Nurin
As a parent myself, I wish to extend my condolences to the family of the little girl. As an adult, i feel we are all responsible for children's safety. No. 1 is of course the parents but we all play a role.
A few months before this happened there have been reports of molesters / kidnappers in the news, it stayed in the news for 3 days at the most then all dies down. Why? Why was there no more reports on the progress of the kids that were adducted in Kg. Baru? What about the child who was taken outside the dad's stall in the market? What happened? Do u know? I'm sure everyone forgot.

I know the police are burdened with millions of cases and few resources but why is no one doing anything? Why spend millions on a building when the money can go to better cause? Like upgrading our police force? (Only 300 man for the whole of Malaysia to track missing persons) Yes in Nurin's case I'm sure the parents had their part in this through taking it for granted that she went with another sister. Even though i personally do not agree with 2 kids going alone, but i don't think they need being reminded that because of them taking things for granted they now can never see their little child ever again. That is the worse punishment any parent can have! outliving their kid but having an innocent child murdered! that's worse!Who are we to judge? After all we are all human and we all make mistakes. now we should learn from their mistakes. I still see kids playing on the road outside the home with no parents in sight. May be this people think this will never happen to them this is the most dangerous thing to happened. Sometimes i feel I'm paranoid but I'd rather be paranoid then sorry when it comes to my kid's safety. I feel the public, parents, kids must be taught about safety. Not only kids and predators but basic safety. Make more safety campaigns in schools for children and parents. Involve the whole community in keeping our neighborhood safe. We should be suspicious and don't think that we are being busy bodies. Teach parents how to teach their kids about strangers and sexual crimes. I and sure 80% of parents do not know how to talk and explain to their kids what being molested is. Especially if you have young children. Why is it that there is no data base in our country that registers sexual offenders after they are caught and when they get out?. At least then we know who lives in our neighborhood and how safe we really are. That would even make the police jobs easier too for tracking purposes.We tend to live in our little own bubble and this we should not. The police need to change their system and not treat all missing persons with the same process. right now, Missing persons are all lumped together and under the same process, be they the aged or teens or grown ups or kids or babies. I had no idea until this case came to light. This also show me how ignorant i was! I thought the police had different priorities to find missing persons. I thought that missing kids had a different department that worked their cases. which is not true. By assigning blame nothing changes! by charging the parents it shows that you just want to point the finger then wash your hands! So come on think! I challenge you the people ruling our country to do something using the gift God gave you your brains.So to change the country we need to change ourselves then work towards changing the rest.

I'm in my Silent Scream Mode!

Living a nightmare!
I've been silently screaming lately ever since the Malaysian Government raised the petrol price by 41%!Why silently? because there is no one to listen to my agony! They say change your life style. How do you change your life style when you are already in the water up to you neck and struggling not to go under? Then some one drops a rock weighing a ton on top of you and tell you to " live with it!"As a single parent & single bread winner, my life is hard enough but at least i used to get by. Now,..... I feel I'm slowing drowning. It's not just the petrol price that increases, but essential food items, and house hold items.In this age of modern technology, super corridors, mega projects, etc, i have been washing my daughter's and my own cloths by hand! Why because when my washing machine of 8 years broke down in 2006, I couldn't afford the luxury of a new one!I'm not a charity case yet, (but it does seem like i will end up there eventually) i just feel I'd do without the luxury so i can provide a better daycare for my child when i am not with her.I know everyone is going through hard times now and we all have to take steps to tighten our belts. And i do! I have cut down on my visits to my sister who lives 11 km away from me. But it makes me so sad when she says " come over for this Saturday la" and i have to say "I Can't" just because I do not wish to drive there.Now you can say take the bus la! but,... i really do not want to get into that "very, very blood pressure elevating" topic today. I'll just say the bus service is hopeless!Someone said go talk to your MP in your area, Like as though i have the time or the inclination I just wonder how many people has actually gone and complained to their MP's regarding the rising cost! and What can the MP really do? or How much can they do??I was thinking, if they raise the income level of every one, i can just bet you that the cost of everything else will raise as well!So that is why i am in my silent scream mode!HELPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!

In My Shoes

Sunday, June 22, 2008

In My Shoes!
I have read so many times about the price increase but so far i feel that no body actually knows or cares about how much we the general just below average and under average income earners live!In the Star papers, there was an article on how people manage their income but most of them earned RM3000 Average!What about me? And those in my shoes??

I am a single parent! I am not a charity case (though it looks like i'm being pushed into that), I have one kid 3 yrs going on 4. my ex-husband doesn't support me with anything! I work in a factory as an assistant officer. My net income is RM1300 per month! To get to work 7 km away and to send my kid to the babysitter i have to drive my self because the public transport only decides to turn up when they feel like it!!!!!!!!! Moreover, to get from my house to my job of only 8 km distance away, i will have to travel on 2 busses that will take me 20 km in different directions before i can get to work. (What "great" public transportation we have here)!

Just for your infor I live in Seremban not too far off in the rural area but just about 1 hour's drive to KL But we have very crappy public transport services and i imagine most towns have this same crappy service too!

The 13yr old wira car i drive was actually my brother - in - law's old car, God Bless him, he let me use this car when he bought a new one late last year (an iswara) so that i can get to work on time.
I rent my house for RM280 a month and my babysitter cost me RM270 a month.
My utilities bill comes to RM100 and my phone bill around RM80.
I had to cancel my former credit card which i had from my single and free days and now i'm paying for it monthly until the year 2010! RM160 every month!
Then i put money a side for my kid's milk, diapers, food, gas, rice, (all these used to be around RM250 a month)
and of coz petrol! i used to spend RM120 for petrol a month.
And that would leave me RM40 a month for doctor's fees, and may be getting a new slippers for my kid or whatever needed for her.
How i've change my life style, I have not had a hair cut in 2 years! Let me just say i've made changes to my life style - drastic changes - from 2 years ago when my ex-husband left!

However, still, I used to get by. But Then came to petrol price increase!
And now, chicken price has gone up (i'm not even going to talk about the rice price!), eggs, milk, vege, fish, all up!
Even if i sell this old car i still wont be able to cover my expenses for food!
How much and how long do you think that RM625 cash will help me??
I'm so sick and tired of hearing them say change your life style!
There is nothing more for me to change! Unless i skip some meals, may be my breakfast and my lunch?? But then what if i get sick? Who will care for my daughter? How do i pay for the doctor? And if i don't go to work (because i'm sick) may be i might not have work anymore??
Then who will pay all the expenses? Where will i live?

Can the Government give me a house? Now, if I'm struggling now with my income, what about my other friends in this factory where we work together?

Whose salary are RM550 a month. There are 2 women here who are widows with school going kids! who works as operators for 5 - 8 years here and their salary NET only reaches RM650 a month!

lucky they have their own house and do not pay rent!
lucky one of them walks to work another cycles to work. But don't think the price of petrol has not affected them!
Because they still have to buy food and clothes and pay for the kids school bus all have increased!
but the income is still the same! So tell me, how they can get the RM625 subsidy???
What is the government going to do for them??All I hear on the government focused news are how they are trying to find ways to help the civil servants, I'm not saying they do not need help, but,
WHAT ABOUT US???
Is anyone doing anything for us or would you all prefer we just die of quietly??
Our income will not be increased, and you can bet because of everything the company will not increase the salaries for next year as well because they need to cut cost or close shop!
Then what will we do?? Did you know that you can get welfare help if your families income is RM350 and below only? This was what they told them and because they have work, they are not entitled for welfare help!
So can some one explain to US, THE REAL PEOPLE JUST WHAT THE HELL IS THERE FOR US TO CHANGE???
AND DO NOT TELL US TO GET ANOTHER JOB BECAUSE WE DO NOT HAVE THE TIME!!!

I really do want a reply from someone who can really give me good clear answers not some "merry - go - round the bush" answer! Thank you!

I wrote this letter to the Star but there was no replies. I forwarded to the Malaysia Today Editor and They posted it on their website, i received many comments there. And I thank all of you for your comments.

"All compromise is based on give and take, but there can be no give and take on fundamentals. Any compromise on mere fundamentals is a surrender. For it is all give and no take." Mohandas Gandhi
An ounce of practice is worth more than tons of preaching. Mohandas Gandhi

Friday, July 18, 2008


Dedicated to Dancer my Prancer

Fly away to the angels,fly away and be free.

Let your soul be at peace now; will you look down on me?
You are not alone, I know you are happy with Big Mummy,

It was just yesterday-you were breathing in my arms? Yet today,….you lay so still

I can't believe that you're gone, I remember you, young and happy, carefree, chasing crabs in the sand,

Waiting patiently for the rat,

Chasing all the cats,

Bullying your brother (lovingly), Yet always loyal, loving, guarding, us your family,

And that's what I'll remember.
So fly away to the angels, fly with them and be free. Let your soul be at peace now, don't forget about me.

When the time has come for me to go I have a few things I'd like you to know

Don't grieve for me nor shed a tear

Remember the good times shared when I was here

My mission here must have been completeS

o I'll follow the path and take my seat

The one that was made especially for meW

hen my body is useless and my soul set free

For I will be in a better place Can you imagine the smile upon my face

Finally at peace, no worries at all, I, too, will hear you when you call

You say dear Lord I miss him so much Never realized I loved hin so much

And even though you'll miss me my friend

This is not goodbye

It's just till we meet again
In Loving Memory Of My Beloved Dancer (My Hunny Bunny)
24th Dec 1994 to 18th July 2008

Dancer Dear boy, I miss you so much you were so good to us, You made me feel so safe when there was no one around. All these years I was strong living this life because of you my dear Dancer boy.

Thank you my HunnyBunny, for your unconditional love and devotion and for guarding us so loyally.
I will never forget you.

What Are YOU!~??

WHAT ARE YOU???
THE STAR
Wednesday July 23, 2008
20 years, rotan for raping five-year-old

KUANTAN: A tree cutter was sentenced to a maximum 20 years in jail and ordered to be given 20 strokes of the rotan by a Sessions Court here for raping a five-year-old girl.
K. Kamalason, 47, pleaded guilty to committing the offence at a Chinese graveyard in Bukit Setongkol here about 6.45pm on Dec 25, 2006.
Sessions Judge Ahmad Zamzani Mohd Zain, who described the offence as serious, cruel and inhuman, ordered the sentence to run from yesterday. The case was supposed to be heard yesterday morning, when Kamalason decided to change his plea.
In his submission, DPP Ahmad Fadhli Mahmud said the victim not only sustained bodily harm but also suffered “very serious internal injuries”, involving her uterus, intestines and private parts.
“She was also traumatised by the whole ordeal and may not be able to lead a normal life.” He asked for the court to impose the maximum sentence, as the victim was a young girl.
“How could he had done such a thing when he himself has two children?” he asked.
In mitigation, Kamalason, who represented himself in the hearing, asked for a lighter sentence, saying he had a wife, a mother and two children aged two and six to take care of.
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My blood is practically boiling when i read just the headline!!
Is this person a human? I am pretty sure the animal kingdom would object loudly if i called him an animal!
Unfortunately, there are many more like this..... DEVIL! This devil is not fit to be a father! He is evil! Cases like this is why i am convinced that there is evil in this world! I'm not blaming this on the devil i'm saying HE IS THE DEVIL! HE is Satan's follower!
Some may say he is "sick". To me if he is sick then please put him down!
I know i am not GOD as such i cannot judge him. But,........... i can't help it Forgive me GOD but i have judged him and condemned him too. I have caste the stone at him even though i am not pure. To me his crime against such an innocent angel is just too violent and cruel for words.
To his family, I am very sorry that you have this,... devil as part of your family. May God protect you.
I hope that all those devil like him out there are caught and punished accordingly. If not in this life PLEASE GOD, Punish them in the next!To the little victim, my heart goest out to you, i will remember you in my prayers.May the angel watch over all the little ones, everywhere.

This is so meaningful to me my neice (14yrs old ) is obsessed with gettign fairer. Her own family calles her the "black sheep" just coz she is ther darkest one in the family! It is so sad.
To all the The Media PLEASE STOP selling white is better and that Dark is BAD!
To those of you Who says fair is lovely, Did you know that Black is Beauty?

This peom was taken from my friend Terri's (in UK) Blog. Thank you Terri.

Why Did You Make Me Black LordLord .. Why did you make me black?Why did you make someonethe world would hold back?Black is the color of dirty clothes,of grimy hands and feet...Black is the color of darkness,of tired beaten streets...

Why did you give me thick lips,a broad nose and kinky hair?Why did you create someonewho receives the hated stare?Black is the color of the bruised eyewhen someone gets hurt...Black is the color of darkness,black is the color of dirt.

Why is my bone structure so thick,my hips and cheeks so high?Why are my eyes brown,and not the color of the sky?Why do people think I'm useless?How come I feel so used?Why do people see my skinand think I should be abused?Lord, I just don't understand...

What is it about my skin?Why is it some people want to hate meand not know the person within?Black is what people are "Labeled"when others want to keep them away...Black is the color of shadows cast...Black is the end of the day.Lord you know my own people mistreat me,and you know this just ain't right...They don't like my hair, they don't like myskin, as they say I'm too dark or too light!Lord, don't you thinkit's time to make a change?

Why don't you redo creationand make everyone the same?

God's Reply:
Why did I make you black? Why did I make you black?I made you in the color of coalfrom which beautiful diamonds are formed...I made you in the color of oil,the black gold which keeps people warm.Your color is the same as the rich dark soilthat grows the food you need...

Your color is the same as the black stallion andpanther, Oh what majestic creatures indeed!All colors of the heavenly rainbowcan be found throughout every nation...When all these colors are blended,you become my greatest creation!

Your hair is the texture of lamb's wool,such a beautiful creature is he...I am the shepherd who watches them,I will ALWAYS watch over thee!You are the color of the midnight sky,I put star glitter in your eyes...There's a beautiful smile hidden behind your pain...That's why your cheeks are so high!You are the color of dark cloudsfrom the hurricanes I create in September...

I made your lips so full and thick,so when you kiss...they will remember!Your stature is strong,your bone structure thick to withstand theburden of time...The reflection you see in the mirror,that image that looks back, that is MINE!So get off your knees,look in the mirror and tell me what you see?I didn't make you in the image of darkness...

I made you in the image of ME!