A dedication to you mummy.

I wish for just one more time to see your face, looking at your photo is just not enough,

I wish just once more to hug you close.

I can still remember the last hug i gave you was the 1st day i saw you in hospital, Wednesday 3rd March 2004.

You were so weak.

So different from the last time I saw you, when you were strong and healthy and you hug me tightly, ironically also a Wednesday 17th Dec 2003 The day I left you at the airport.

I wish with all my heart to go back in time and re-do every action & every word that i had said that had caused you hurt.

I wish that the day i became a mother myself that you were there with me,

but,... you were not and you will never be here again.

I wish with every fibre of my body to be able to wish you a Happy Mother's day you your sweet face, instead of standing over your grave and reminising all those Mother's days we spent together before and wondering if you know that I love you Mummy, and I miss you so very much, that 5 years is still not long enough to lessen the pain of losing you.

But as a mother too now, I know how much you love me, how much you love us your children.

You showed us your love with all your care and strugle to bring us up.

I wish when my turn comes too, my daughter knows how much I love her, just as I know how much you love me.

Happy Mother's Day, Mummy, Rest in peace.

Happy Mother’s Day!

When I had you in my belly

I thought that was the most wonderful feeling that any woman can feel

When I gave birth to you I thought you were the most beautiful baby in the world

When you made your first mumble I thought that was the most beautiful song to my ears

When you said your first word I thought that was the happiest day in my life

When you made your first step I thought that was the biggest achievement that I’ve made

And

when you had your first fever I thought; what did I do wrong? And I was really worried That I requested to stay home just to take care of you

Then when you cry, I would be worried. Are you hungry, or thirsty, or in pain? Or are you just sleepy?

When you are asleep, I would be worried. Are you comfortable, are you warm enough? Or should I put your favourite teddy bear next to you?

When you first attended school I was worried, would you be safe there?

Would there be anyone disturbing you, or hurting you?

Can I leave you in school all by yourself?

When I saw little children anywhere , I would be reminded of you

Because my little angel is at home, safe and sound

There are no perfect words to describe how much I love you my child

No matter how angry i am at you in that minute, It's forgotten with the love that I have for you the very next minute

It’s not possible that I would stop loving you my child,

ever!

No matter what your feelings are towards me,

For I would sacrifice anything & Everything that I have

Just to make sure that you are happy, healthy and safe

When I think about my life,

I know my life is perfect,

You made it perfect when you came into my world

I know then my life would be empty with out you my dearest child.

I love you.

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