Good Bye My Dearest Friend, Tequila

I had to put my Tequila down last Friday, the 4th Feb 2011. I had no choice.  I couldn't bring my self to remember him or think about him being gone these few days but coming home last nite and there was only silence no more hearing him bark in welcome, it was so final. I'll never see him again and I need to say good bye.       Tequila my dear bunny baby, I love you. You had aged and I know you weren't happy anymore. You had almost lost all your hearing, and i think your sight was going too, you couldn't go roaming freely like you used to. You couldn't walk anymore and I was not able to care anymore for you my baby boy.        This time, my honey bunny you didn't bounce back. I wished I had  more time and energy to have had cared for you better in your old age, my dear friend.  For you were much more then just a dog, or a friend, you were part of my life and my family for 16years. It was good years, we had, you and Dancer were little (fat and pampered) angels that we loved dearly to some people's annoyance :) we know.       My one regret was in forgetting how much you hated injections. I'm terribly sorry that you had to go through that pain in your last moments, I can only hope that my holding you through it gave you a bit of comfort and that hopefully it made the pain a little less terrible for you my dear boy.        I comfort myself with the thought that you are no longer suffering in this world but that you are happy now where you are with your dear brother Dancer. I know you missed him in the 2 years that he went on 1st and left you behind.        I'll remember the good days we had, I'll not forget what good company you were to me when my days were dark and lonely. I won't forget the security you gave me. You will always be in my heart. My beloved Tequila 25th Dec 1995 to 4th Feb 2011.        Below was a poem I found which seems like what you would have silently said to me, Good bye my little baby boy. I miss you so much.  May I go now? Do you think the time is right?  May I say good-bye to pain-filled days and endless lonely nights? I've lived my life and done my best, an example tried to be. So can I take that step beyond and set my spirit free? I didn't want to go at first, I fought with all my might. I’m sure you know. But something seems to draw me now to a warm and loving light. I want to go. I really do. It's difficult to stay. But I will try as best I can to live just one more day. To give you time to care for me and share your love and fears. I know you're sad and afraid, because I see your tears. I'll not be far, I promise that, and hope you'll always know that my spirit will be close to you wherever you may go. Thank you so for loving me. You know I love you, too. That's why it's hard to say good-bye and end this life with you. So hold me now just one more time and let me hear you say, because you care so much for me, you'll let me go today. In 2004 Tequila and Dancer brothers. They are together again now. Author: Susan A. Jackson.